After months of not feeling connected to my blog or much of anything, I’ve finally just started writing after many failed attempts… I really needed a break and it lasted much longer than I expected or truly wanted. I guess that’s just life though. Things don’t always go according to plan or how we hope they will.
Before I took a break and time to reflect I was so distracted and putting all of my time, attention and focus on what I thought were the right things. They weren’t necessarily wrong but weren’t being pursued in the right ways. I think I was too dependent on external sources to feel fulfilled. This time to think and just be made me realize A LOT about myself and decisions. I’m definitely taking things slowly as I get going again as I don’t want to repeat the same mistakes. But most of all, I’m just happy to be back to expressing myself in some form. Regardless of any outcomes, we still have to do the things we enjoy.
I enjoy creating and writing, telling stories with photos and words. There was just something missing and not quite right with me to be able to create the way I was used to. That fire and motivation were gone, and for a while, I didn’t know how to get it back. I just decided to give it time and push myself to start little by little. So here we are, as the words are finally flowing and more inspiration slowly coming.
There is still some resistance I’m fighting because I did step away for 6 months and I’m overthinking sharing again, and how I should do it. I just have to continue to push thru and work around that. Part of me has been questioning what direction I want to take my blog in, and what the ultimate purpose is. These thoughts are also apart of why I’ve been away these last few months as I just wasn’t sure anymore. Not knowing is not something I do well. But there is some level of uncertainty that comes with life regardless of what we choose to do or pursue.
So here’s to not knowing but making an effort to step forward and create anyway!